It's been such a whirlwhind few months, between changing jobs and starting grad school, I'm honestly surprised I didn't gain 20 pounds, or go off the deep end! It's been really hard to find my motivation again. Last year when I lost over 40 pounds, I was SO motivated...I was able to resist temptations, fight cravings, portion control...AND I went to the gym ALL the time!! For the life of me (literally), I couldn't figure out why I couldn't find that motivation again!
Well...I'm not sure what did it...but it's back baby!! I restarted last week, have been wearing my BodyBugg consistently again, and counting EVERYTHING that goes in my mouth! Last week I lost 6 pounds, and I'm on track to lose another 2 or 3 this week!! I have learned a few things about myself: 1) I can do anything with Jesus...He motivates me. His plans for me motivate me. 2) I have ZERO self control. I tried to buy these little weight watchers desserts with the intent of eating ONE and saving the rest for other days...yeah...that didn't happen, I ate them all. So...buy singles or don't buy them at all.
It's the little things like this...knowing where my strength comes from...knowing what I can handle and what I can't. That's what's getting me through this. This is about changing my life! I want to be around 40 years from now! I want to be able to say I took the best care of my temple that I possibly could!
Things have been stressful lately, but that's LIFE!!! You're gonna be busy, you're gonna be stressed, you're gonna get hurt, and your heart will be broken. BUT...man, Jesus is SO faithful. He lifts my head and says "Baby you're worth it! I've got plans for you that you could never imagine for yourself!!" So I just have to make sure I'm being the woman He calls me to be. As long as I'm where I'm supposed to be, doing what I'm supposed to be doing, and being who I'm supposed to be, things are going to work for His glory!!
Goals for the next 3 years:
1) lose about 60 pounds
2) successfully re-locate to Fort Worth :-D YAY!!!!
3) pay off all debt
4) finish Master's Degree
5) Surrender my life and my passion to the Nations. Hoping to go to Libya with Doctors Without Borders!
So, here goes nothing...starting all over again...again.
